At the start of every new year we create for ourselves a list of goals that we want to accomplish. Along with that comes the dreaming of how things will be once that goal has been achieved. Some of us get caught up in the planning / dreaming but never really accomplish the goal for one reason or the other. Or the beginning of the year begins to fade away and the refreshed attitude also fades. I have been secretly living with that mindset for a while now and it has created someone I did not really like. Wanting to start something or get back into something that I miss but I don’t because I have become my own road block and then I get disappointed. It became a viscous cycle that I would like not to repeat.
So I’d like to reflect on the reality of the past year it was not easy. I struggled, I cried, I was lonely, and I doubted myself and ability while still presenting a put together self. It was hard I carried so much pain in my heart. When I tried to share what I was feeling it was always over looked with the response that “I have so much to be grateful for”, and I was grateful for every blessing but being ignored still made me feel even more alone. I was not able to complete my goals and felt like I had no purpose. I could not find myself because I had lost myself.
Last year I learned so much about the people who surround me and about myself. The one thing I want to come from this year is to rebuild the relationship I lost with myself since it is important to my well being and the well being of my family.
To loving myself more this year, welcome 2018 and all you have to teach me.
Cincity Style Edition
Cindy is a SAHM to two energetic little one’s (4 and 2) and married to her number one supporter. She is a graduate of FIU with her bachelor’s in Psychology and minor in women’s studies. Founder of her own blog, she writes about local restaurants, family activities, fashion, and mommy life. She is passionate about her family, coffee, yoga, personal growth, fashion, and supporting other women all while having fun in life. Before becoming a SAHM she managed her father’s Frameless Shower Door company, working in many of the high rise buildings that line the Miami Skyline. She still looks for new cranes whenever staring out over the buildings. During her last semester at FIU she lived in Maastricht Netherlands on a study abroad program at the University of Maastricht. She now resides in the Fort Lauderdale area with her family and has turned in the hard hat for sunny days on the playground with her kids. You can find her sharing daily life on insta stories and over on her blog www.cincitystyleedition.com
